I’m often disturbed by my own lack of compassion, yet other times I can be surprised by my capacity to love. The trick is in practicing mindfulness. Being aware of the negative thoughts, acknowledging them, forgiving yourself and letting it go. Being gentle with yourself and not being too critical of your own human condition. This affliction we have as humans to be angry and vengeful, hurtful and spiteful. We will always carry this burden but we do not always have to be our own victims of it. We can forgive ourselves and learn to follow a more enlightened path.